Stormy Weather

I am having one of those days.

The rain is pouring.

I have just screeched through a double driving lesson.

I feel stupid. Vulnerable. Incapable. Lost.

Somewhere in my body there is a feeling that is telling me I am in the right place. that this is a rich, juicy place, a spring board into deeper clearer seas.

There are some things in Life; maths, driving, drawing, to name a couple. Some things that take me into an ancient lost space.

I can't hear anything, see anything and because I have shut down I am not learning anything.
I end up doing three point turn after three point turn but in this blank white world I go into I never remember any of it.

It reminds me of being at school. Locked to my desk, feeling humiliated.. instead of trying to work out the answer just reprimanding myself with "this should be simple, why do I keep getting it wrong?"

I wonder if I went back to school today I would get a label that would make it all alright. Or is it just human?

Do we all have these places?

I am going to have an unfashionable cry.